Something's Gotta Happen Or Something's Gotta Give

She's not actually our family's dog. She belongs to a family friend (my age) who's been staying with us for years. Said friend just got her own apartment on the other side of the river and is taking the dog with her when she moves :(

The plus side of this is that it will now be Safe for us to get a cat without worrying about Koda hurting it. But. I'm going to miss my Large Hairy Dog Friend :(

We didn't realize until something forced us that yes, Alistair does come from a universe where he did the dark sex ritual with Morrigan, and yes, there is a very important implication to that

It's entirely possible that Celeste is the original, or... an original, if that's a thing.

It also appears that Celeste is the one who got all of the memories/knowledge of HTML/CSS, for some reason. But she doesn't understand Java.

We seem to be, developing, away from being facets and towards being a Fully Fledged System™

WHICH IS UNFORTUNATE in some ways because it seems to mean that a) some of our skills are getting partitioned off to different system members, b) I, as Ray, am having trouble with like... not being in control? we all might be tbh. definitely we're switching a lot (me and celeste today, in particular). Which equals the body having a pretty big headache

It doesn't help that we don't really have a well-formed headspace? those who aren't the host go SOMEWHERE when they aren't around/fronting/conscious... don't they? its, very confusing, and a little bit stressful

We told Counselor Pam about being a system and she said she was glad she told us because it meant it could be discussed. Which is basically what we/I was talking about with Leli

But yeah we are learning more about ourselves and each other which in itself is a good sign bc it means (at least I think it means) we CAN get more stable eventually it'll just take time.

There are potentially two facets we haven't fully identified yet

1. has wings, seems to be the voice of reason here? appears to be a "he," we don't know his name yet though we've been trying to guess
2. is female but we're unsure if she's real or if she's some kind of fusion between ray and celeste. alternatively she might be a fictive who just hasn't found herself yet

(because yes. there are five of us and we definitely need MORE)

Ray was thinking about relationships the other day because they've been kind of romantically frustrated lately and honestly it's a good question: like, can we be in a relationship with someone while still being respectful to each other + the other party in the relationship? Would it be too confusing, with our collective sexuality being so complex? What happens when we feel more distinct from each other but then go back to feeling less separate, how do you explain that to someone and work with it? It's so confusing :( These are mainly rhetorical questions, especially given none of us are likely to come anywhere within a hundred miles of a relationship anytime soon, but I think it is worth thinking about.

Lol apparently we had our first system fight (apparently thats a thing)

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Well apparently Alistair shifted in just long enough to feel REALLY UPSET about almost becoming a templar and then shifted back out

(this terminology still feels so awkward ugh but it's what we've got)

I think the gist of it is, "I was a templar trainee for ~10 years and never got weeded out as disloyal or disobedient, and would literally have ended up becoming a templar despite it being the worst thing I could imagine had duncan not come along, because it literally just did not occur to me to rebel against this thing that i found deeply unpleasant"

and like

yes we do have a deep-seated fear of hurting ourself or others because it literally doesn't occur to us to disobey things sometimes why do you ask :)

*makes a post 'access only' but turns anonymous comments on*

I need more stuff to do on this site

Okay so in my fantasy series, I've been exploring the idea of magic originating from a world of dreams (think the Fade in Dragon Age) and that anyone can navigate it in lucid dreams (a process creatively called Dreamwalking)

And if you can encounter other people who are also dreamwalking and talk to them??? Especially if the normal laws of space and reality don't apply???

Fantasy internet

People meeting strangers from all around the world; this being remarked upon in literature and culture since its always been a thing (for as long as people have been able to dream and understand that some of what they're experiencing is Real)

People meeting their lovers in the dream world 4 secret romance

...Assassins and intelligence networks trying to take advantage of dreamwalkers, people coming up with countermeasures

And ofc people going to spirits for guidance and seeking out Hidden Knowledge via visions and stuff

I'm so glad i thought of this idea. im keeping it